Hoe voel je je nu uitgedrukt in (song)teksten (deel 33)

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place (that) you've known
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

Heather Nova - Help Me Be Good To You

Here in the light of late afternoon
Sun on the water, I'm thinking of you
How we've come too far
To be drifting apart
All this distance we're losing
I know it's my fault

But I think that I love you
I know that I do
I just need you
To help me, help me be good to you
Help me, help me be good to you
Help me, help me be good to you

I don't know why
I can't settle down
Something from my childhood
I still haven't found
And I don't wanna hurt you
With all my longings and my doubts
Just the way I need to feel free
I can see how it brings you down

Well I think that I love you
I know that I do
I just need you
To help me, help me be good to you
Help me, help me be good to you
Help me, please help me dad
Help me be good to you

Help me be good to you
Help me, help me be good to you
Help me, help me, help me, help me
Help me be good to you
Help me be good to you
Help me, help me be good to you
Help me, help me be good to you

Alkaline Trio- Nose over tail

Crack my head open on your kitchen floor
To prove to you that I have brains
Meanwhile tin men are led by little girls
Down golden roads that lead to nowhere

Fine time to fake a seizure
Feel your mouth on mine, you're saving me

Whatever happened to that silly dream you had?
I want to make it real
I'd love to rub your back
Like a plane crash that never hits the ground
I fall in love with you
I'm nose over tail for you
Your voice like the sound of sirens to a house on fire
You're saving me

Hello kitten I don’t miss sex just the feeling of skin against skin that I want,
The photos I take are not the photos I like, they look dull, they look crap when placed next to real life,
You have a blue iris with a hint of burnt of sienna and it wrestles my hate to the ground,
You have inquisitive eyebrows that make me soft centred and your lips make a purring sound.

I’m going to make myself go blind tonight,
I’m going to make myself go blind tonight,
I’m going to build a shrine to the wasted days,
I’m going to make myself go blind tonight.

Hello kitten, you’ll never know what it’s like to be me when I’m curled at your feet,
I thought you were perfect but that racist joke just made it all bitter sweet.
Won’t you slap me around and make my lips a bit swollen so we can spend a day off work,
Won’t you cut up my arm and lock it in a suitcase, cause love is coming in spurts,
I’m so fucking happy it hurts.

Everything about you is how I wanna be
Your freedom comes naturally
Everything about you resonates happiness
Now I won't settle for less

Give me all the peace and joy in your mind

Everything about you pains my envying
Your soul can't hate anything
Everything about you is so easy to love
They’re watching you from above

Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
I want the peace and joy in your mind
Give me the peace and joy in your mind

Everything about you resonates happiness
Now I won't settle for less

Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
I want the peace and joy in your mind
Give me the peace and joy in your mind

Muse - Bliss

Juniko sent us electronic mail from Japan,
In September.

She said that the moon was getting bigger there,
That the typhoons had passed,
And now it was time for moon-watching in Japan.

She brought us a cloth rabbit, in a clear box,
And wrote on the card that they have a legend in Japan:
That the rabbit in the moon bakes rice cakes
When the moon gets bigger,
In September.

She told us to sit the cloth rabbit by the window,
And to watch the moon from there at night.
But the moon didn't get any bigger here,
In September.

Held the door for me you`ll make sure I`m fine, yeah.
Hold my hand all day, no you would not care.
You would just be thankful to.

But do you feel you`ve won?
Don`t you see I`m weaker with you?
I hope you don`t really think.
That I`m better off without you.

And I feel fine, yeah.
I feel fine, yeah.
Take my hand, just be careful with it.
I feel fine.

Will you stick with me, you`re right if you don`t.
`Cause I ain`t easy now, no.
Giving you a hard time.

But do you feel you`ve won?
And don`t you see I`m weaker with you?
I hope you don`t really think.
That I`m better off without you, yeah.

And I feel fine, yeah.
I feel fine, no.
Take my hand, just be careful with it.
I feel fine.

And I decided not to be, no not to be with you at all.
But I haven`t got a clue if I`m handling this right, no.

You give me everything I want.
But I need to be alone.
And believe me baby I don`t understand why I can`t be with you, no.

And I feel fine, mmm.
I feel fine.
Take my hand, just be careful with it.
I feel fine, no.
And take my hand, `cause I trust you with it.
I feel fine.
And I feel fine.

I can sing
I can dance
Just give me a chance
To do my turn for you
There’s a change I’ll slip
But with stiff upper lip
I’ll sing a song for you
Laughter is free
But it’s so hard to be a jester
All the time
And no one’s believing
I’m the same when I’m bleeding
And I hurt all the time deep inside

I’ve shed a tear for the lying
While everyday trying to
Paint this smile for you
Backflips, cartwheelings,
Somersault feelings
What is there left to do
Laughter is free
But it’s so hard for me,
A jester all the time
No one’s believing
I’m the same when I’m bleeding
And I hurt all the time deep inside

Roll up, roll up
Enjoy the show
Pick me up, wind me up, put me down
You’ll see me go
And this painted smile
May miss for a while
Then come back and steal your show

I sing, I dance
Give me a change to do my turn for you
With backflips, cartwheelings,
Somersault feelings
What’s there left to do
Laughter is free
But it’s so hard to be a jester
All the time
No one’s believing
I’m the same when I’m bleeding
And I hurt all the time deep inside

Laughter is free
But it’s so hard to be a jester
All the time
No one’s believing
I’m the same when I’m bleeding
And I hurt all the time deep inside

I forgot myself today
The living daylights far away
I made my pictures dance and say
"We're not feeling any pain"
There was no one even near
To remind me of the fear

Laughing with everything

I could stay here all the while
In a trance that lasts for miles
I'd make my words float round and smile
They're not feeling any time

Laughing with everything

I forgot myself today
Prison ship tied far away
Words and pictures make me say
"I'm not feeling any pain"

Laughing with everything

Clouds above go sailing by
I found my meaning in this life
clear white is flying in my eyes,
underneath a blue, blue sky
The waves come rolling in with the tide.
I've been away too long
and everyday I missed you more.
You look like you did before
only prettier.
Everyday I love you more.

All the people rushing by, by, by
looking for meaning in this life
so used up, and blinded by lies,
They're underneath the blue, blue sky
the way they seldom seem to smile
I don't know why.

'Cause I've been away too long
and everyday I missed you more.
You look like you did before,
only prettier.
Everyday I love you more.
I love you more,
everday I love you more,
and more.

Cause I've been away too long
and everyday I missed you more.
You look like you did before,
only prettier.
And everyday I missed you more,
and more and more and more and more.
I've been away too long
and everyday I missed you more
oh you look like you did before
only prettier
everyday I love you more.

I love you more.
Everyday I love you more.

K's Choice
Quiet Little Place

In this quiet little place
I can't remember having known a different pace
In this quiet little place
I can surrender to the beauty of its face

And now everything I see
Whether it's an airplane or a tree
It makes me wonder
About the things I must have missed
And the chains around my wrists
They are no longer

In this quiet little place
I can't imagine what it's like to be back home
Where they care about what time it is
And spend their days answering the phone

And now everything I feel
Whether it's fiction or it's real
It's so much clearer
Like the color of this light
It seems more dangerous and bright
But I don't fear her

And slowly it fades, I'm back in the race
I have to fight it, I know
I don't want to go away

In this quiet little place
You run your fingers through my hair and whisper "Hey"
And no matter how I try
I can't seem to think of anything better to say

NO DOUBT - Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

You said when you'd die that you'd walk
with me everyday
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the lord came
and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you
away from me

And now she lives in heaven
But i know they let her out
To take care of me

There's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pay silence my fears she is near
Bringing heaven down here

I miss your love i miss your touch
But I'm feeling you everyday
And i can almost here you say
"You've come along way baby"

And now you live in heaven
But i know they let you out
To take care of me

There's a strange kind of light
In my bedroom tonight
Payer silence my fears she is near
Bring your heaven down here

You taught me kings and queens
While stroking my hair
In my darkest hour I know you are there
Kneeling down beside me
Whispering my prayer

Yes there's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear
She is near
Bringing heaven down here

The next time that we meet
I will bow at her feet
And say wasn't life sweet
Then we'll prepare
To take heaven down there

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Rammstein - Amour

Die Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
Sie atmet dich, sie sucht nach dir
Nistet auf gebrochenen Herzen
Geht auf Jagd bei Kuss und Kerzen
Saugt sich fest an deinen Lippen
Gräbt sich Gänge durch die Rippen
Lässt sich fallen weich wie Schnee
Erst wird es heiß, dann kalt, am Ende tut es weh

Amour Amour
Alle wollen nur dich zähmen
Amour Amour am Ende
gefangen zwischen deinen Zähnen

Die Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
Sie beißt und kratzt und tritt nach mir
Hält mich mit tausend Armen fest
Zerrt mich in ihr Liebesnest
Frißt mich auf mit Haut und Haar
und würgt mich wieder aus nach Tag und Jahr
Läßt sich fallen weich wie Schnee
Erst wird es heiß dann kalt am Ende tut es weh

Amour Amour
Alle wollen nur dich zähmen
Amour Amour am Ende
gefangen zwischen deinen Zähnen

Die Liebe ist ein wildes Tier
In die Falle gehst du ihr
In die Augen starrt sie dir
Verzaubert wenn ihr Blick dich trifft

Bitte bitte gib mir Gift

When you are caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain
Without anyone
When you keep cryin out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just cant find your way home
You can get there alone its ok
What u say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if u keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to remain
What you say is

I can make it thru the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when I and shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you cant face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don’t hesitate stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
And I live one more day and I
I can make it through the rain
You will make it through the rain

Daar gaat ze
Een zoveel schoonheid heb ik nooit verdiend
Daar staat ze
Een zoveel gratie heb ik nooit gezien
Soms praat ze
Terwijl ze slapend met m'n kussen speelt
Ik laat ze
Zolang ze maar met mij m'n lakens deelt

En zelfs de hoeders van de wet
Kijken minzaam als ze fout parkeert
En zelfs de flikken hebben pret
Als ze sensueel voorbij marcheert
Ongegeneerd

Ik weet wel
Dat zij waarschijnlijk niet lang bij me blijft
Ik weet wel
Dat zij met anderen haar tijd verdrijft
Zij heeft soms
Geheimen waar ik liever niets van weet
Zij zweeft soms
En droomt zodat ze soms ook mij vergeet

En zelfs de hoeders van de kerk
Kijken minzaam op haar schoonheid neer
De bisschop zegt: "Dit is God's werk"
Buigt z'n grijze hoofd en dankt de Heer
Nog eens een keer, "Dank U, Meneer"

Zij heeft soms
Geheimen waar ik liever niets van weet
Zij zweeft soms
En droomt zodat ze soms ook mij vergeet

En zelfs de hoeders van dit land
Zouden liever in m'n schoenen staan
Ja, de premier dingt naar haar hand
En biedt mij z'n portefeuille aan
Maar ik denk er niet aan
Loop naar de maan
Daar gaat ze
Daar gaat ze

quote:

LEONARD COHEN
"In My Secret Life"

I saw you this morning.
You were moving so fast.
Can’t seem to loosen my grip
On the past.
And I miss you so much.
There’s no one in sight.
And we’re still making love
In My Secret Life.

I smile when I’m angry.
I cheat and I lie.
I do what I have to do
To get by.
But I know what is wrong,
And I know what is right.
And I’d die for the truth
In My Secret Life.

Hold on, hold on, my brother.
My sister, hold on tight.
I finally got my orders.
I’ll be marching through the morning,
Marching through the night,
Moving cross the borders
Of My Secret Life.

Looked through the paper.
Makes you want to cry.
Nobody cares if the people
Live or die.
And the dealer wants you thinking
That it’s either black or white.
Thank G-d it’s not that simple
In My Secret Life.

I bite my lip.
I buy what I’m told:
From the latest hit,
To the wisdom of old.
But I’m always alone.
And my heart is like ice.
And it’s crowded and cold
In My Secret Life.

En:

quote:

GROOT DE BOUDEWIJN
Tip Van De Sluier

Wanneer geef jij je bloot, laat jij jezelf eens zien
Ben je bang voor anderen of voor jezelf misschien
Ik probeer je scherp te volgen, toch blijf je vaag voor mij
En voor ieder antwoord dat je geeft komt er weer een raadsel bij

En je blijft jezelf verbergen achter de lach op jouw gezicht
Je blijft jezelf verbergen achter de lach op jouw gezicht
En nooit wordt er meer dan een tip van de sluier opgelicht

Al dring ik bij je aan, zit ik op je huid
Ik kom nooit dichter bij jou zelf, je vlucht steeds voor me uit
Zal ik ooit te weten komen, wat gaat er in je om
Of wil je een mysterie zijn, waar ik nooit achterkom

En je blijft jezelf verbergen achter de lach op jouw gezicht
Je blijft jezelf verbergen achter de lach op jouw gezicht
En nooit wordt er meer dan een tip van de sluier opgelicht

Achter iedere deur die ik open doe
doe jij een andere deur weer dicht
en zo blijf je verborgen,
nooit wordt er meer dan een tip
van de sluier opgelicht

Achter iedere deur die ik open doe
doe jij een andere deur weer dicht
en zo blijf je verborgen,
nooit wordt er meer dan een tip
van de sluier opgelicht

Achter iedere deur die ik open doe
doe jij een andere deur weer dicht
en zo blijf je verborgen,
nooit wordt er meer dan een tip
van de sluier opgelicht

Achter iedere deur die ik open doe
doe jij een andere deur weer dicht
en zo blijf je verborgen,
nooit wordt er meer dan een tip
van de sluier opgelicht

Achter iedere deur die ik open doe
doe jij een andere deur weer dicht
en zo blijf je verborgen,
nooit wordt er meer dan een tip
van de sluier opgelicht

It's never where you think you'll find it
The thing you think you're looking for
It could take you all your lifetime
And still you'd never quite be sure

You could look everywhere
Because you know it's there
Somewhere beneath the sky
But too close and you'll get burned
There's no lesson learned
Yet some people pass it by

Turn off your mind, relax
and float down stream
It is not dying
It is not dying

Lay down all thought
Surrender to the void
It is shining
It is shining

That you may see
The meaning of within
It is being
It is being

That love is all
And love is everyone
It is knowing
It is knowing

That ignorance and hate
May mourn the dead
It is believing
It is believing

But listen to the
color of your dreams
It is not living
It is not living

Or play the game
existence to the end
Of the beginning
Of the beginning
Of the beginning
Of the beginning
Of the beginning
Of the beginning

Anathema - Emotional Winter

Speak to me
For I have seen
Your waning smile
Your scars concealed
So far from home, do you know you're not alone
Sleep tonight
Sweet summer light
Scattered yesterdays, the past is far away

How fast time passed by
The transience of life

Wasted moments won't return
And we will never feel again

Beyond my dreams
Ever with me
You flash before my eyes, a final fading sigh
But the sun will rise
And tears will dry
Of all that is to come, the dream has just begun

And time is speeding by
The transience of life

Wasted moments won't return
And we will never feel again

How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,

And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,

And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?

If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?

And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

How do I live without you?

How do I live without you baby?

Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Diggin' to rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so...

Desperate and ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you

Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China
White as Dracula as I aproach the bottle

Desperate and ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you

Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He promised I would find a little solace and some peace of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so...

Desperate and ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you

Jeremy Handlebars loved Sarah Jane Thomson,
Sarah Jane Thomson loved Jeremy Handlebars,
They were going to be married,
And they were going to spend the rest of their lives together
And be very, very happy
And that, as Jeremy Handlebars so often said, was that.

Sarah giggled,
It wasn't quite the proposal she'd imagined,
But that was Jeremy all over once he'd made his mind up
He was just so decisive she thought,
And she wished that she could be like that too.

Jeremy said that it was destiny that had brought them together
And that no one, not even he, could defy the will of God,
So there was no use in either of them fighting it,
Or even pretending to,
It was more a case of ironing out the practical details
and making sure everything ran smoothly on the day.

I mean, there was the question of the cake,
And the flowers of course,
And then, who to invite,
And then, who not to invite,
I mean, where did you draw the line with a thing like this?

Sarah smiled as she stopped listening, and drifted off,
It was true, she could still remember that first day they'd met,
As vividly as if it was now,
And her attention swung back to five years ago,
And that car boot sale in Norwich,
When she thought of how she might nearly not have gone,
She shuddered.

Sarah's parents lived quite near Norwich,
And on the weekend in question,
She had gone back there on a sort of a visit,
Her mum had phoned her up in one of her hysterical states.
Between the sobbing, Sarah learnt that Dad had started drinking whiskeys in the morning again
This time he'd threatened Miss Hand-me-down-lightly, the Lollypop Lady.
By sticking a shotgun in her throat,
And calling her a 'Handmaiden of the devil'
Before unloading into the air and falling down unconscious.

It was just another incident in a long line of them,
But Sarah's mum went through stages where she just could not cope anymore,
And then Sarah would have to go back there for a while,
"Shit!", she thought,
And got on the next train home.

She knew there was nothing anyone could do about Dad,
But she felt sorry for her Mum,
and liked to tell herself that she loved her,
And anyway, there was no point in changing the rules of the game this late in the second half.

It was the usual carry-on when she arrived,
Her mother cried and cried,
While Sarah cooked food for her father,
Which he threw against the walls,

Then at about seven-thirty each evening,
And always a little worse for it,
He'd go outside and sit in his car,
Wind the window up,
Shout the word "Slags!"
Over and over again
As loud as he could,
Til he fell down into a drunken sleep.
Then they'd carry him inside,
And put him to bed.

It was these screams of her father,
That accompanied Sarah upon the walks she took,
After she'd sneaked out of the house,
And strolled along the B1172,
As it meanders its way into Norwich.

Absentmindedly, she happened upon the car boot sale,
And really didn't know why or what she was doing there,
Until she saw it,
And then everything went clear.

The gun cost seventy-five quid,
And, after a moment's dilemma, followed by some mental calculations,
She decided seventy-five was well worth it to blow that bastard's brains out.
With glazed eyes, and, to be quite honest, looking like a bit of a nutter,
She stretched out her hand, with the intention of making the gun hers.

Now, at that exact moment, a truly rare occurrence in this universe,
As it really was that exact moment,
Somebody else she hadn't noticed, and who hadn't noticed her,
Stretched out his hand to take the very very same gun.
It was Jeremy.

The gun, her hand, and his hand, all made contact at the exact same instant,
Eyes and barrels all meeting simultaneously,
Giving rise to what can only be described as something like a sort of true human communication,
A real one off, that allowed understanding to flood through and from and into each other,
All Sarah's murder impulse was exactly and oppositely reconverted into a passionate desire,
Meant with a deep-felt admiration, respect and love for this stranger.
Jeremy said he felt the same,
So they went for expresso's at Caldidge, which is so convenient when it's just round the corner.


They laughed as their stories unravelled,
Especially when Jeremy revealed coincidentally,
That he was there looking for a gun to empty all over his Mum,
And she drank too,
And when he'd been away on a two week Communications Course, which work had sent him on,
She had forgotten to feed his fish,
And he's returned to find them sunny-side down and motionless, mid-tank.

He'd loved them fish,
And he believed that they knew and loved him too,
They were in fact, unbeknownst to his mum,
His closest and most treasured companions,
He told how he sat frozen for a week after he found them,
And how his only contact reality,
Had become the sound of the distant tinkling of smashing glasses,
Mixed in with the cackling laughter of his mother,
As she entertained the local drunks upstairs,
And the stench of ghost haddock,
Which seemed to permeate the entire accommodation block.

He told how he'd remained in this trance,
The gun theory slowly revealed itself to him,
And as it cleared, he woke to find himself driving through the outskirts of Norwich.

As he later went on to explain to Sarah, he had never been to Norwich and it held no fascination for him whatsoever,
In this sense at least, he seemed a normal and sane man, Sarah reasoned,
And indeed, in many ways, we may assume that he was.

They, of course, bought the gun as a token of their love,
Jeremy paid for it like proper men do.
That was five years ago now,
And Sarah sighed as she returned to what she understood to be the present time.

Their wedding came and went in relative safety,
It was not interesting,
In fact, the next significant event to occur in their lives,
Was some five years later.
With some understanding this intermediate period is necessary,
For fuller understanding of what was to follow.

Jeremy and Sarah melted,
They abandoned their own identities and grew into each other,
As time dragged on their branches became so complicatedly intertwined
That it was impossible to tell from which person they had originated.
They choked the individuality of each other in a frenzy that only the terror of loneliness will allow.

Now, neither knew the other, or themselves,
But clung to feigned personalities,
They believed the other required of them.
Their truly sickening and spineless existence,
Based upon complete reliance upon one another.
But at least they were not lonely!
And respite did occur in the form of hobbies,
Which they pretended to share and enjoy,
But, in fact, did not.

The irritation they so often felt for one another,
They denied,
But it would surface occasionally in sporadic eruptions of screaming and violence,
Usually directed at the useless artefacts society offered them as distractions from each other;
The TV, the microwave, and the dish-washer,
Sat as cold and silent witnesses to their futility,
But they did have their uses,
As the time spent working to get them,
Would have been time they'd have to have spent with each other,
In other words, and put much more simply than this,
They became what is commonly known as a right couple.


The next significant event, then,
Was some five years after they'd tied the knot.
Jeremy was at work, doing his job at "Fishy Business Aquariums",
Where he looked after the fish,
And Sarah was at home rearranging their possessions,
She never did seem to be able to get it quite right,
She sat down and sighed absent-mindedly,
Picked up and toyed with the gun which had brought them together,
Ten years ago that day,
Which was kept, pride of place, on their mantelpiece,
And which Jeremy insisted on being kept loaded,
When it just went off.

The bullet went straight through her,
Where her liver was,
Blood and bile and pancreatic juice,
Spattered against the wall behind her,
The three different fluids started dripping down the wall,
And it looked like some weird kind of a race,
And when one drop mixed in with another, they would hurry each other along,
On the descent to the floor.
Or when one drop strayed into the path another one had already taken,
That would speed it along too.
And when the dripping stopped,
And it dried up,
It looked good.


When Jeremy arrived home to find his beloved floating mid-tank, as it were,
Something snapped inside him,
Maybe it could have been something to do with electricity,
Or maybe not
But anyway his brain, his brain just shut off,
And he stood there for about an hour completely motionless,
And then, when he started moving again,
He was talking as if nothing had happened!

He playfully scolded her, as one scolds a small child, for the mess she'd made on the wall.
And then he cleared it up with a new kind of liquid,
Which did do the job really well,
And as he did so, he carried on talking normally to her,
The fact Sarah had never been much of a talker, and tended to drift off,
Was an enormous help in maintaining his delusion,
He also found, that as he dragged the corpse from room to room with him,
It was best if he heightened his conversation to an excited jabbering,
And unloaded all the banalities and problems he'd encountered at work,
Or just talked anxiously about his money worries.
Either way, it really helped.

The fact that their coupledom had made them extremely uncomfortable in front of other people,
Due to the absurdity of their false roles,
Had meant that visitors had not been welcome in the flat for many years,
So that was 'no problemo' either.

In fact, Jeremy soon found this new state of affairs rather to his liking,
Even when the body started to putrefy and fall apart,
He lovingly transported the separate bits from room to room,
And carefully reassembled them,
Just the way he remembered her,
He really didn't feel lonely at all.

His favourite bits were her beautiful eyes,
Which, after they had become detached from the mother-head,
He kept in his pocket,
And would affectionately fondle,
Especially when he felt nervous,
Or he was outside.

And sometimes when the mood was right at night,
He'd pick up an ear, and place it to his mouth,
And mumble secrets about love and desire,
And if he could find all the right bits,
He'd lovingly carry them to his bed,
Where he'd fall upon them and wriggle and moan,
On these special occasions, he'd take the eyes out of his pocket,
And place them on the pillow,
And as he lay there writhing on what was left of the body,
Her eyes would stare frozen cold and emotionless at the ceiling.

Jeremy Handlebars didn't feel lonely at all